Thought #25 Why I LOVE New York

The other day I was on the phone with my mom she's back at home in California, she said to me she doesn't know what was my fascination with New York city growing up but a lot of my favorite shows I watched when I was younger seemed to all have two things in common and that was that they took place in New York City and or focused on fashion. I said to her you know what your right I had never thought of that. I guess it was always destined that I was going to move to New York sooner or later in my life and I'm glad I wanted until I was 20 years old to do so. Moving to New York alone is a big step especially coming 3000 miles away where the sun is always shining in sunny LA lol.
Here are some of my favorite shows growing up that had to do with New York, Fashion or both!

Thought #24 RUN AWAY LOVE.. .

I'm embarrassed to say this but one of my reasons for moving to New York aside from my life and career in fashion was my broken heart. My heart got broken in April of 2009 and since that day I haven't been the same on the inside.

Let me start from the beginning.. .

Before my heart got broken I was that boy that always talked about finding true love and getting a fairytale ending like in the movies. I would encourage all of my friends to fall in love but that all soon changed once my heart got broken. I fell in love with someone who didn't feel the same way about me. I don't know if any of you have ever been in the same situation I was in but let me tell you it hurts. It hurts to know that the only person in the world that you've ever liked or loved doesn't love you back. It hurts to feel like your not good enough for someone of that your not handsome or goodlooking enough for someone. With all of these thoughts running through my mind it made me very insecure about myself as a person. I shut down. I shut down in a way that helped me get to where I am now but not for all the right reasons. I thought to myself that if I became even more serious about my fashion career that I would gain the love of said person. And so I began making myself better and it worked. I found a great fashion school The Art Institute Of Hollywood. But that wasn't enough for me I felt like I had to get away the pain was too distracting I had to leave California and I did. I transferred to the New York City campus of my school and left all the pain and heartache back in California or so I thought. Upon getting settled in and adjusting to the New York life I still felt that pain I was still broken inside. In March of 2011 I received a facebook message from the one who broke my heart saying from what I got from it "sorry" a part of me wanted to curse them out but I didn't I couldn't I can't be mad at someone for not loving me like how I want them to.

Lets just say that over the next 7 months my heart has healed. I don't feel like the old me though I'm still digging deep everyday looking for my happy and once I find it no one will ever take it from me again!

The purpose of this post is that yes I got my heart broken I didn't let the pain consume me. I let it drive me and make me better. I now realize that I cannot run from my problems I have to face them head on like a man and best believe I will!

I have a few war wounds but I'll be alright.

Thought #23 The Devil "Does" Wear Prada

For about two years now I've watched the movie "The Devil Wears Prada" everyday. If you've never seen the movie I suggest you do. It follows the life of a college graduate named Andy who yearns to be a journalist at The New Yorker but ends up getting a job at one of the largest fashion magazines in the world as an assistant to the editor and chef. Though Andy doesn't know or care about fashion she soon learns that this chaotic industry can consume you if you let it. It's a great movie for us fashion lovers. I don't know what it is about this movie that I love so much but I feel like I have to watch it everyday.

Now that I finally intern at a major fashion magazine I feel like I'm living the life of (Andy, main character) as everyday I'm going to different showrooms to return accessories we've used to in previous shoots or pick up new accessories for a up and coming shoot.

I do everything I'm asked to do with a smile, I'm Lucky to play Andy and just like her it took me time to get use to things but I've adapted quite nicely and fast in a fashionable manner.

Thought #22 Very Lucky

My internship with Ford Models ended as New York Fashion Week rapped up it was depressing because I would have like to stay and learn more but I know that when one door closes, another one opens up. My dream internship was always to work at a fashion magazine so I sent out my resume out to local magazines who's email addresses I had and Lucky Magazine emailed me back the same day to come in for an interview. Upon going to my interview I briefly reread my teen-vogue handbook just to know what to say and to ease my nerves. I don't know how and why I got an email back saying I got the internship but I did and that made me the happiest boy in Brooklyn lol.

I'm an intern to the accessories editor which means keeping the accessories closet organized, picking up packages from clients for shoots, prepping for run-throughs etc basic fashion magazine intern stuff and I love doing every bit of it.

I'm learning so much about how the magazine is made and how big of a role accessories plays in the magazine. If I didn't know before or understand I do now. I feel very blessed and "Lucky" to have gotten this internship and will continue to do my best and whatever it takes to make it in the industry!

Thought #21 Moving In

As I said in an earlier post myself and schoolmate/friend Shana were on the search for an apartment because we were very much over the whole dorm life experience. After looking at many apartments we found the perfect one for us in Bushwick in Brooklyn it has one bathroom I know that's the only part that kind of blows but were both clean people so it's okay also we each have one bedroom and another room to act as our closets Pr offices. Who would've thought we'd find a four bedroom in our price range in New York? We sure didn't lol but we did and signed the lease right away. Were going to be living here for a year which works out because we graduate from our school in a year.

The night we got our keys I was extremely happy my first apartment and it's in NYC, score!

After we spent the whole day moving from our dorm to our new apt we decided to head to "the city" for drinks and food to celebrate our new beginnings.